by Christine Langmayr
I grew up in a family of dreamers. My parents both had a way of creating their perfect world in their minds while their real life was full of sadness. Because of their deep interest in higher ages teachings of my Guru a lot of their dreams felt like they could be a reality for all of us. They dreamed of communities that were deeply spiritual and lived according to higher ages principles.
Living in a house full of sadness and at the same time being constantly told about their higher ages dreams was very tormenting for me as a young idealist. I felt like I had the obligation to make my parent’s dreams into a reality but I had no idea how to do that or where to even begin.
It felt utterly hopeless and like an impossible mission. Not wanting to deal with my own failure of doing this I retreated into my own self created fantasy world while life around me stood in stark contrast to my imagination. My heart was full of sadness and pain in those years. Little did I know God was pooling his forces to come to my rescue.
After my mom’s passing I had a deep meditation in our country side home close to Vienna with the reminder of my family. We visulized my mom’s dream of having a community of higher ages people living in this house coming into reality.
I shared this experience with a group of people that God had secretly recruited to be my guardian angels. It was a few months later that our project unfolded itself. We decided to implement the ideas of our director and producer about psychosynthesis and spiritual living in a 6 month intensive project to live together in a higher ages community by giving up our addictions and sincerely doing our process. It was hard.
My experience was that I realized I was hardly ever present with the people around me. At an early age, I decided to check out and spend my time in my imagination rather than in the physical world around me.
In our project there was absolutely no room for me to do any daydreaming because I had so much to do and so many people to constantly interact with. It was extremely aggrivating. But I made the resolution to change myself no matter what happened.
In search of the snow covered tips of Himalyian Shangri La we found ourselves right next to a very smelly dairy farm. After walking over the sea of Galileh and flying with the magical carpet of Sharzad over the isle of crete we found ourselves building our Shangri la right in Los Angles.